5 Ways To Win My Heart.

a. Be intelligent. In so many different ways. I love wit and dry senses of humor. If you don’t read any relationship with me would be hard. I love people who correct my grammar and know a different language. I like to learn from people.

2. Gentlemanary acts. Opening doors, yes ma’am and no sir, honesty, carrying heavy things, making polite conversation with strangers, helping the elderly, leaving a decent tip, being in control of your anger, and working hard to name a few.

c. Be creative. I love art. Photographers, musicians, comedians, and writers always steal my heart. Expression is always a good thing. Speak up and let me know what you believe in.

4. Smell good. Although not the most important thing this goes a long way. Your smell will stay with me for a while. Abercrombie is my favorite and always will be. Dolce and Gabbana is a close second. I also adore Ralph Lauren Blue (I actually wear this perfume) and Tim Mcgraw’s collection. Being clean also helps. Shorter hair, clean nails, and a well kept beard are all good things.

d. Loving Jesus and being a Man. Adoring Jesus and knowing how to treat a lady are trump cards. I am not a second choice and neither is Jesus. Knowing your Bible is an excellent way to enter my heart but knowing your God is a sure way.

Everything.

I want an antique white house.
One that I can fill with orphans and friends who need help.
I want a family that loves each other and every one else as well.
I want a partner in crime who wont hold me back but will propel me forward.
Someone who will go along with my crazy ideas and come up with more on his own.
I want children who love you with all they have. Children who are creative and use their talents for your glory.
I want to take care of people and pour all that I am into everyone else.
I want to love. And I want to be loved.
I don't want my life to be easy but I want it to be simple.
I don't and I won't do boring.



I want to give you everything;
So I give you this.
Everything that I want.
And I wait for you to give me everything that I need in return.

Good Enough For Me.

Living simply in order to achieve greatness.

I've always known that I could live a fairly simple life and be incredibly happy. Living in the family that I do and being a part of Master's Commission has made me a dreamer. I have big things planned out in my head, incredible things that would glorify God. Most of these dreams have been planted inside me by the Creator himself. What I haven't ever been able to wrap my brain around is my desire to have both a simple life and and an incredible one. I would love to just get married, live in a simple house on a decent amount of land, have and adopt a bunch of chiltrens, and just be a mom. Maybe write a little here and there. All of this would definitely glorify God but there is also a desire in my heart to do Great things for Him. He has given me these desires and these talents for a reason. He has called me to be great.

Recently He has told me that I will one day be a speaker. SCARY. I am horrible at speaking. I was actually talking about this last night. Give me a pen and a piece of paper and my thoughts and feelings will flow but ask me a question and the words are stuck somewhere deep down in my throat. It's crazy. I can tell that He is using this year to push me in this area. I just learned how to control my tongue and He's already asking me to release that control to Him. You can't live a simple life and be a speaker that travels around the country.

If you've never heard of Lysa Terkeurst you should look her up. She's amazing. I was listening to her at a brunch my mom dragged me too and I was just fascinated. Her story is completely different from mine and we have very little in common but as I was listening to her God just said "That will be you. Prepare yourself for me to use you" I mean... I don't know about you but that's a tad bit scary for me. I would have never thought in a million years. (God's had a lot of those I would have never thoughts happening in my life lately) How does one prepares one's self for a role like that?

It's been quite frustrating. There haven't been many people that I have told about this and I think that has been a mistake (Hence me putting it out there for all of you to read). Because I still so much desire a simple life. I was talking to my Godmother the other day while I was home for the weekend and she just really opened my eyes to a LOT of things. And while she was talking I felt God tug at me a little. He can't trust me with the Greatness he has for me (and my family) if I can't first live simply. It was definitely an ah ha moment. A light bulb went on for sure. The desire for simplicity is a good thing. It's what He wants me to desire. I am to live a simple life and then at some point when I least expect it He will shine through me and (hopefully) everyone around me will see His greatness. And I will do great things for Him.

I have been told that I have to have a plan. I have been taught to live an exceptional life. I have been taught that living simply is almost unacceptable. I have been told that I must and will be great. But really all that I think God really wants from me is to serve Him daily and take it one step at a time. So I don't have a plan right now. I'm taking it one day at a time and when He tells me something I will listen. I am not and will never be great but He is. That's more than good enough for me.

God has Ruined Me.

If you haven't already figured out I love words. Even more than words I love their definitions. I was listening to a video Lysa Terkeurst has on her website and she used one of my favorite words in her answer to a question. She said "God ruined me for good". I love that statement. Being ruined for good is such an oxymoron.

Ruined: the downfall, decay, or destruction of anything. the complete loss of health, means, position, hope, or the like.

God ruins me on a daily basis and I worship Him for it. He ruins my selfish pride. He ruins my dependency on those around me; earthly things. God ruins my laziness and lack of motivation. He ruins my vanity. God HATES my sin therefore he wants it destroyed. God does all of this because I asked Him too. Lysa also says something about this in her video. She said she asked God to do a dangerous thing. She asked Him to unsettle her. I asked God to ruin me. Destroy anything inside me that gets in Your way. Which like Lysa says is a dangerous, scary thing.

So... if you want to live your life on the edge ask Him such things. It's scary and yes it is dangerous but it will bring you closer to Him and closer to all the wonderful (wonderful yet hard) things He has planned for your life.


I feel as if this post is less than par. But for some reason He brought it to my attention this morning so I figured I would share.

Trust me.

I am allowed to make mistakes.
I am allowed to make decisions that you don't agree with.
I am even allowed to make decisions that you are not proud of.
I am allowed to disappoint.
I am not perfect or better than anyone else on this earth.

I am still growing.
I am still learning.
I am struggling.
I am still trying to figure out exactly what I believe and how God wants me to live my life.
My life.
His life.

Let me make mistakes.
Be happy for me in the choices I am making.
Support me without question.
If or when I come running to you for counsel envelope me and help me through it.
When I come running to you.
I need to know that you have my back; always.
It should not be a question in my mind.
I should always be able to tell you everything and anything at any time.


You want me to grow up and figure out my life. Then let me.
Let me grow up.
I promise it will not last forever.


I love you more than words could ever express and I so badly want to make you proud.
I want to be someone that you can boast about.
I want to have everything together. I don't want to be a mess anymore.
I don't want to be a disappointment.
But it is admissible.
You have taught me the best that you knew how.
Now trust that I am wise enough to heed the teaching.
Trust me.

I Simply Remember My Favorite Things.

This is going to be kind of a weird post but it was extremely fun to put together. I definitely found out I'm a true southern girl while deciding what my favorite things are. Enjoy. Or don't.




Favorite Words:
Meandering. Breath. Darling. Create. Splendor. Relentless. Wander. Reckless. Nevertheless. Humanity. Inspiration. Heart. Ache. Rugged. Gnawing. Scarred. Tweaked. Fight. Monkey. Remain. Lovely. Flight.



Favorite Things:

Old books are my favorite. I have a pretty good collection of them. I just think that they are beautiful to look at and they hold so many memories. I would have an entire room full of them in my dream home

. Hugs from really good friends on a bad day. Who doesn't love that?

James Dean. Enough said.

This picture actually has a few of my favorite things in it. I want a typewriter badly. I would love to write a book on one and I think that eventually I will. I also love antique keys and stationary. I love getting letters in the mail.




I think this is gorgeous. I love antique jewelry and hopefully one day I will have one of these on my finger.



Reading. Anytime. Anywhere. But this actually looks like the perfect spot to enjoy a good book.




This picture reminds me so much of high school. I love riding in cars laughing with my friends. I also love big cars. I miss my Trail Blazer so much.





Listening to music and One Tree Hill. You can't go wrong with this picture. I know a lot of people don't like Peyton but I love her. She reminds me a lot of myself.




Stars. I miss my North Carolina stars.







My God mother has a tire swing in her back yard and this picture reminded me of her. Plus that tree is breath taking and the grass looks super comfy.




I am amazed at the artwork that God creates in the sky. Storms just remind me of how majestic He is. Plus they're pretty and when it rains I get to wear my rain boots.




Sweet Tea. Favorite.

I'm obsessed with flowers. Gerber Daisies are my favorite.







I LOVE this house. A lot a lot. I want to buy an old southern mansion and fix it up. I think it would be the greatest art project ever.








I love to worship and I love watching other people worship.









I think my favorite part about Fall is all the comfy warm outfits you get to wear. Boots and Sweaters are my favorite.












I will have a Great Dane one day. I will!









Fall. Leaves. Coffee. Cool weather. Bonfires.

I just want to steal him. He is the cutest thing I have ever seen. Ever. I miss my chiltrens from my daycare.

The Creator of Splendor.

I think that these words sloshed together are truly awe-inspiring. They have stamped themselves inside my brain reminding me not to be apprehensive. Because honestly I want to be brilliant. Now before we (we as in I) get ahead of ourselves lets remind ourselves (myself?) that brilliance in itself(myself) is irrelevant. (I'm fully aware that the previous sentence probably makes absolutely no sense to anyone's mind but my own). I want my brilliance to come from the creator of splendor. I want to act in obedience, with full confidence, whenever He so much as whispers a request. I want to humbly trust Him with my incompetence. I want fear to be a four letter word that I scoff at. I scoff at you fear. And as the great inspirational writer Akon says: Cause I was raised up to show no fear. Cowardly hearts will never last long here (I do not suggest the investigation of these lyrics). Cowardly hearts don't last long with Elohim. So... I will no longer have a cowardly heart and you shouldn't either. Duh. Because being cowardly is the epitome of selfishness and who wants to be selfish? Not I.



So be brilliant. That's all I'm saying.



He is not afraid of bad news; his heart is firm, trusting in the LORD.
(Psalm 112:7 ESV)

He said to them, “Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?”
(Mark 4:40 ESV)

Questions unanswered.

What is this nagging in my bones?
This gnawing on my soul?
The rugged feeling of a mistake almost made?
It's so powerful it's almost physically painful.


Is it You?


Is it a warning in the wind?
A cautionary tale?
Is it a screeching halt to a selfish plan?
A reminder of emotional weight?


Or is it me?


Is it a scared little girl running from the possibility of pain?
Is it a closed heart and a scarred spirit?
A damaged soul leaning towards continual wander?


WHAT IS IT?!



And the only reply I ever receive comes dashing in once more.
"Darling, you already know"

God's Everlasting Love.

And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified. What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? Who shall bring any charge against God's elect? It is God who justifies... Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?... No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:30-39


I'm pretty sure this speaks for itself but just in case here are some definitions:

Predestined: Destine someone for a particular fate or purpose.
Called: Inspire or urge (someone) to do something
Justified: Declared or made righteous in the sight of God.
Glorified: Reveal or make clearer the glory of (God) by one's actions

Tribulation: A cause of great trouble or suffering
Distress: Cause (someone) anxiety, sorrow, or pain
Persecution: Persistent annoyance or harassment

Conquer: Successfully overcome (a problem or weakness)